My thumb used to rub the empty space where the wedding ring had been for the past 17 or so years. It’s absence is a reminder of the events of the past years. “For better, for worse, ’till death do us part.”. Although both of us are still very much alive, we have parted ways all the same. Now there comes the long period of readjustment.
Up until about a year and half ago, I used to write prolifically on for this little blog and sometimes got kind feedback. It was humbling to see that my material has been read pretty much all over the world. And then my world turned upside-down.
One of my favourite Marvel Heroes is “The Incredible Hulk”. If I am honest, there is a lot in him which resonates with me; inside me is some form of Hulk wanting to get out. I keep him caged up fairly well most of the time. Actually, he has not got out now for quite a long time although I can feel him sometimes rattling the bars of his cage.
Looking back through this blog, it seems I mainly write posts about coping with hard times, and wondering if I can see God in them. From taking up my guitar and singing church songs when I am just not in the mood for it (here and here) to euthanasing runts, there seems to be a constant paradox of “Yeah, life sucks but God is good.”. Continue reading “When your life needs a Plan B: Life sucks but God is good”
It had been a damn tough 24 hours. Within that time, I had been given a few difficult bits of news and I was emotionally pretty much running on empty. So, I just stayed in the side office where I took that last piece of news and re-read Psalm 23 a few times. This isn’t to say that I have all my ducks in a row – not by a long shot, but after a final kick to my emotional testicles, I needed something. Continue reading “Beauty from ashes”
Music plays a big role in the church service. Familiar hymns and songs can help us connect to God. Soft background music welcomes us in the building, or covers the throat clearing during communion, but I wonder what we see when we look at the musicians?
There is some stuff on my mind right now, big things for me. I started talking to God about one of them this morning. Almost immediately a verse from a song and a bible verse came to mind. The verse of the song was from “Thank You” by Jake Hamilton. Continue reading “Thank you for the small things”
So, I am sat here, with my damn phone in my hand, and thinking, “I wish I could send a text message to God. Just to, you know, check in. Let him know how things are.”.
If there is one taboo topic, one elephant in the room in the church, it’s the Tithe. High on the list of topics which can evoke strong feelings. As Christ followers there are of course other topics which get our blood pressure up but they come and go with the seasons. Subjects which easily get us vocal might be women priests, homosexuality or moving the church service forward by an hour. All these can spark debate and flush our cheeks. But the Tithe? That might raise our blood pressure a bit, yet on this topic we will remain silent.